"Just as light pours in the room, I saw it once, it disappeared, and so did you..."

I'm starting to go against everything I've ever believed I am. I'm starting to think the greatest day of my life will be the day my heart realizes what my head already does...

"So we were an accident. You'll always be my favorite one..."

The song about you will never be written. As long as this feeling lasts, and as long as I try, I'll never be able to put it into words. I feel that's always been my greatest flaw as a songwriter. I can never take the biggest, most devastating, influential moments in my life and turn them into songs. I write about little things that in grand scheme of things, mean little to nothing. So, no I'll probably never get rich or famous for my songwriting, and no, I'll probably never write a song about how you make me feel.




Thanks for reading.

My thought for the day/potential start of a new song:

"It's days like today that make me want to bury you up to your neck in my front yard and run you over with my lawn mower..."

"Then when it all goes to hell, will you be able to tell me 'sorry' with a straight face?"

What is it about me that causes nearly every encounter I have with other humans to turn out negatively? What ruins possible friendships? Why am I drawn to people that are not interested in getting to know me at all, that wish not to become my friend? Where do I have to go and what do I have to do to find interesting, fun people that think I'm interesting and fun? What gives? What the fuck!? Enough questions, I'm shutting off.


Thanks for reading... I guess.