"Some people never will go crazy, what horrible lives they must lead.."

I just have to get this off of my chest.

I get it. I'm pathetic. I'm a fuck up. I've ruined every intimate relationship I've ever had with anyone, romantic or otherwise. I'm scared to death I'll do the same thing now. It makes me panic. It makes me do things I wouldn't normally do. Fear is a tough thing to fight, but I'm fighting.... tooth and nail, I'm fighting.

I want this, and I'm not about to let my brain get in the way of it. I'll be damned.