"There is no love, just appetite, and its consequences keep you up at night..."

Last night after I finally built up the courage to come home and be alone, I wrote down all the things I wanted to say. They just seemed perfect at the time. I don't know if those are the things I'll say later today, so I'm saying them now, like this.

I doubted that you cared about me, and I don't know why. It's obvious you do. I guess it was just my own insecurities.
This is a good thing for both of us because we're not ready for this, but I hope this didn't ruin everything for good because if we ever are ready for this, it will be great. I think that was really the scary part.
I love you. I don't need you to say it back, I don't even need you to feel the same way. I just need to get it off my chest because it true and from the bottom of my heart.
I want to keep you close to my heart. I want to be there for you and vice versa. I need someone close to me to stay a constant in my life.
You mean alot to me. I want to trust you and know it's always okay to call you and never feel like I'm a bother or I'm extra stress.



Thanks for reading.